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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

im gonna make this short and sweet.

school has been really dreadful and i hate it.
i dont like this sem.
it's so boring and slow.
there's nothing to look forward to anymore when i go to school except for mad inc and my rugby friends.
other than that, it's really sucky.

i hope this sem will pass fast.
please.

okay, thats all.
and mad inc, i miss all of you!
LOVES! (:

my ramblings at 11:23 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

watched return of the kings last night at leroy's place.
it was four hours long.
and chef glen cooked lasagne.
thank you glen! (:
the lasagne was awesome!
heehee.
so i got home at about 5 and woke up at 9 to go for work.
i felt like a zombie at work because i practically dragged myself there.
but thank God, work was quite slack today.

sigh, not looking forward to school tmr.
im still in the holiday mood.
it's about time i should switched back.

anyway, to my beloved mad inc and my fellow malay friends,
SELEMAT HARI RAYA!
dont forget to bring your kuihs and cookies and whatever food and share it with me okay?
heehee! :D
i like malay kuihs.

okay, goodnight all.

my ramblings at 9:56 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

thank you everyone for your encouragements.
i really appreciated it.
i'm feeling better already, so dont worry yeah.
thankyou!
i love you all. (:

crap. school starts tmr.
and im not looking forward to it though.
but im looking forward to see mad inc because i really miss them!
might be buka-ing with them tmr.
SIGH. school ends at 5 for me tmr.
sucky aye?

happy schooling everyone! (:

my ramblings at 9:20 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

SIGH.

i dont know what's wrong with me but i get sad easily nowadays.
small little things would affect me and i'll get upset over it.
im getting really emotional these days and i really dont know why.
sometimes i even cry to bed.
i just feel like i cant open up to anyone at all about how i feel.
i know i used to confide in a few friends.
i dont know but now,i tend to bottle up everything inside and i choose not to share.
dont ask me why i choose not to share.
it's not that i dont trust you all, i do okay.
but, it's just that i dont even know what's making me so upset.
sigh, i know my sentence are contradicting.
the point im trying to make here is that i really dont know what's happening to me.

i dont know why am i feeling so down easily.
it might be the lack of love from my boyfriend.
he has been neglecting me alot lately due to his a levels.
i cant blame him because a levels is important.
but if my friend's bf can make time for my friend, then why cant my boyfriend do the same?
i might be unreasonable, i know.
but i just feel really unwanted.
i've been sufferring alot.
it's not like he doesnt know.
im sure he knows but why is he not doing anything about it.
sigh, blame it all on the a levels.
he sees his classmates more than he sees me.
he told me that after his a levels, he'll make up for the loss of time.
but it's crap.
because he's gonna fly off to US to visit his mom and sister.
and from US, he is gonna fly to thailand to meet his classmates.
and after he comes back, he's going in for ns.
im crying as im typing this.
it's like..
im not important to him at all.
all he think of are his friends.
i sacrificed so much time for him when i was having my exams.
i still met him in the midst of my exams.
why cant he do the same?

josh.
i have already tried my very best to salvage this rship.
but sometimes, things just dont come our way.
it's never easy to have a rship.
it's not just about liking and loving each other.
there are more to it.
and to me, a rship takes two hands to clap.
it's mutual.
i have already done my part and im extremely drained out both physically and mentally.

so my love,
would you do something about it and make me happy again?

' a girl with a broken smile'

my ramblings at 1:14 AM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

work was busy last night.
i had to attend to a table with 2 women, with disgusting attitude.
i had to see their irritating,annoying facial expressions!
ohmygosh. i cant believe they gave such horrible attitude.
i know it was entirely my mistake cuz i missed their orders.
i had like 3 orders on hand that time.
and one table had 10 people.
so imagine how stress i was.
bleagh. ):
and each time when i wanted to key in orders,another table would call me.
i tried asking my colleagues to help but they were all equally busy.
so yeah bingo!
i totally forgot to key in the orders for the 2 women.
wahlao,it's not like i didnt apologise.
come on, i did.
you still gave me that dirty annoying, unacceptable attitude.
you think you were the only ones with hungry growling stomachs aye?
you think the chefs and workers are superman?
you think you were the only ones at the restaurant aye?
get a life miss(s),
it was crowded!
cant you see it?
God gave you eyes for a reason you know?
yeah i know im serving you.
but still, there's a certain level of respect you should give us too.
their tone to me was so hostile, i felt like throwing the rag at them.
i held my cool alright.
i really like working but not working with nasty customers.
and mind you.
i DONT believe that customers are ALWAYS right.
that's CRAP.
humans are not perfect.
we make mistakes.
so if we make a mistake, just apologize and accept it with a smile.
it's simple isnt it?

but whatever it is, i still love where im working.
i like my manager,my supervisor and the people working there.
they are a FUN bunch! (:

my ramblings at 3:19 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

cab drivers are so reckless!
they think they own the road.

okay let me explain.
i was waiting for the green man at the traffic light outside parkmall.
and so finally the green man appeared and was ready to cross.
and when i was almost halfway crossing,this cab just happily drove pass me and a few others crossing as well.
HELLO!? it was red light you mr reckless cab driver!
and he could still smile after dashing the red light!
hey you, moron reckless driver!
i think you are more than reckless!
how can one not be alert while driving?
the way he drove was extremely reckless and dangerous!
he ought to sit for his driving theory and practical again.
i guess he pass by mistake.
and i was one of the few victim who almost got knocked down by this stupid mr reckless cab driver!
it was so darn near.
if i were to walk at a faster pace,i would be knocked down .
and be in hospital right now,dont know whether dead or alive.
stupid driver.
you almost took my live away,just like that.
im still young.
i still have many things to do in planet earth.
you are lucky mr reckless, that i didnt take down your license plate.
or you will lose your job.

thank god im fine.

anyway,im not trying to insult cab drivers here.
im just trying to explain myself.
well, if cab drivers can drive with a little more care, then accidents could be avoided.

people who drive, not only cab drivers.
please drive with care.
God gave you eyes for a reason
so use it wisely.
dont take innocent lives away just like that.

my ramblings at 11:39 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

alright.
so my days are becoming like a routine.
it's very mundane.
i'll wake up, go to work,then come home and be a couch potato.
if there's trg,then i will go for trg.
so routine right?
ohmannn.
it's like i dont even have a social life.
well,i do have but only on weekends.
everybody is so busy on weekdays.
what happened to my mad inc ppl?
you all dont miss me ah?
heeheee.
date me out laa! :D
this poor girl here is so deprived of social life.
dont even talk about love life.
cuz my boyfriend doesnt even wanna date me out! ):
the only thing he wanna date and spend time with now is his books.
how i wish i was a book now.
bleargh. ):

im miss lonely for the time being.

my ramblings at 10:22 PM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

i didnt know working night shift at my work place can be so fun!
there's more live at night somehow.
hur hur! :D

and omg!
the psi was so damn high today.
from 130 to 80 then to 150 laa!
it's quite scary.
the air is dirty.
it is really unhealthy man.
you smell smoke around you and everywhere you go.
and this has caused many ppl to fall ill including me.

anyway,school's gonna start soon.
i havent had enough for my holidays yet.
it's gonna be gone just like that.
time is going way to fast for me.
slow down a little can?
heehee. (:

baby is going ns S O O N.
okay,maybe not so soon.
but quite soon.
he is enlisting 12 january!
im so sad.
after 12 jan,i doubt i will have any life.
it's just basically school,rugby and maybe work.

i dont want 12 jan to come! ):

my ramblings at 10:34 PM

Friday, October 06, 2006

joke of the day.

we were all in a circle warming down at the field.
and fizah was standing beside me.
so she asked me this,

fizah: aye,what time is prison touch?
me: huh,what's prison touch? (it sounded so foreign to me)
fizah: wahlao,you dont know prison touch?!
me: nah,never heard of it.
fizah: you know the show on tv airing on channel 5 every thursday?
me: wahlao! PRISON BREAK laa!

omg laa! that was the ultimate joke of the day i tell you.
i couldnt contain my laughter.
so i bursted out laughing.
im sorry if i embarrassed you but you were so funny!
you didnt know you said the wrong thing.
and you were so confident.
cute laa you!
why, think of touch rugby too much until think of prison touch?
hahaha,prison touch makes no sense at all.

my ramblings at 12:23 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

im one happy girl today.
because i pass my opsy supp paper! :D
i couldnt stop smiling when i receive the sms.
that's the highlight for today. hurhur. (:

congrats supi for passing dsag.
you're also one happy girl today aye?
and hairul too! :D
i have yet to ask norman.
but heyy,dont worry.
it will out turn out fine.
so chin up.
mad inc will always be here for you! (:

my ramblings at 11:52 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

my grandpa got discharged from the hospital on sunday.
and he seems well.
so that's good news! (:

anyway,i got so annoyed today at city hall mrt.
i wanted to take a train to boon keng to meet baby.
and i had to buy a standard ticket.
you see, i only had ten in my wallet and nothing smaller than that.
and i didnt wanna put in that ten dollar note into the machine because i'd receive all coins.
so i decided to change that ten into smaller loose notes at the control station.

me: hey,can i change this ten dollar into smaller notes?
guy: yeah,sure. (and he gave me TEN one dollar COINS! )

WAH LAO AYE!

he obviously didnt understand whatever i said man.
mygosh laa!
and so i told him in plain english, i even told him in details.
me: erm,i wanted notes, not coins. could you give me a five dollar note, two two dollar note and one one dollar coin?

now guess what he gave?

ARGH!

he gave me a five dollar note and five FIVE one dollar COINS laa!
sheesh man!
why why why?
doesnt he understand english?
if i wanted coins, i wouldnt trouble myself going to the control station right?
i'd have just put the ten dollar in the machine.
ohgosh.
i was irritated and annoyed so i just took whatever he gave and stormed off.

i know i might be a little fussy but who wants ten one dollar coins in your wallet?
it's not like i wanna take neoprint man.
gosh..

my ramblings at 11:33 PM