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Saturday, June 18, 2005

hello!

sorry arhz. there's suppose to be your name up there one. (: but i can't figure out the layering. sighs.

but anyways you're going to get a new blog soon. haha! thads when i get my com back. *faints*

anyways. i have NOT forgetten your birthday pls. HAPPY 18TH DARLING JIE JIE! WO AI NIIII! (:

-love kwan

my ramblings at 4:56 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

sigh i dont know what more to say or even do.
and i cant take that fact that i am putting myself into more sufferings.
i'm alr sick and tired of whatever you did to me.
i really dont understand you.
can't you just spare a thought for me rather than blaming me all the time ?
am i always SO wrong ?
or do you just simply hate me ?!
or rather, you just love seeing me sad and hurt ?
i dont even know myself now.
i'm so tired of all these, both emotionally and physically.

' i watch the walls around me crumble.
but its not like i wont build them up again.
so here's your last time of redemption.
so take it while it lasts cause it will end.
and my tears are turning into time.
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye.
i'll be the first to go.
Don't wanna be the last to go.
i wont be the one to chase you.
but at the same time your the heart that i call home.
i'm always stuck with these emotions.
and the more i try, the less i'm whole. '

my ramblings at 3:10 PM

I'm missing you Girl
even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

If your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do ,to stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

If your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But i wont ask you to stay
i'd rather walk away
If your heart is not in it

i have suffered enough.
i just hate to be treated this way.
i dont see why you should treat me this way.
perhaps i should just walk away.
since you dont care.
and yeah, nobody cares.

my ramblings at 2:11 AM

Friday, June 10, 2005

hello jie jie. im in school now! having self study... =( sianz. all my friends left me alone can? =(

before i change your blogskin for you, i want to type an entry in your bloggy! =D

im so sorry but im not changing it now because im in school and i dunt have the html with me. =) i'll do it soon.

zzz. im going back to sleep.

-kwan

my ramblings at 11:11 AM